How much is useful
I am pondering around because of you.
Silly, if I could be the adorable women in novel, I will never let myself to do so.
They gives me very high point on judd.
Blue,a little blue.
It is unhealthy I know. When the world is claiming on their achievement.
Only, when I think I am in front of people, can I take up my confidence.
Do you remember everyone worth His Love? Why do you care so much about the thins showed out?
You have found your path, do you know it? Advertisement. Then you just have to do it. Smile.
I asked online, whether he likes me. The answer is [no].
Sometimes I am so depressed, that we are trapped in the current condition, we could not experience a little bit more, even a little bit more of the beautifulness other person have.
Cheer up, cheer up dear.
The wisdom I got from bible study again is I so admire Sarah. Well-educated, self-sercured and elegant. Even for Melvin’s wife is lack of such adorable peacefulness.
And the reason J, attract me is not only because his music, but also the lights in him, the brightness. It is not from his achievement, but from Jesus. The affection both of you have, the tenderness in your speaking.
Dear J, I am so sorry, but I still keep you deep in my heart. I pray to God everyday that I can make you happy. Yes, thank you lord for making your life so beautiful and enriching.
Even though there are still a lot of, a lot of difficulties ahead. I shall not be afraid and trust his mighty hand will guide me to the kingdom.
I will be the lady, who is elegant, achievable,well-educated, good english speaking, and what? confidence, and could hold the whole environment. Yes that is exactly the power I am looking for, be presentable in front of people. Like Grace.
When I sat in USE class room, I found there was one boy really attractive. He speaks fluent english and answers all the questions with witty comments. Maybe I am not as intelligene as him now, because of education background, and my thinking methodologies.
Yet, it does not mean that I could not learn from him. Like I am learning from Grace.
This life is so alone. But you could keep going.
Ask friends out for studies. Who would you like to be with?
Siwa? Leijieqiong? Lvhuilin?
I am so cold.
Back in school, with a horrific start.
I do not know why, I need some outlet, to let the frustration go. I am so trapped with the past experience that I could not do anything well. The failure I had.
The people who seems friendly, but look down upon you inside. English, thoughts, expression, when can I be the girl I want to be! God!!!! Please, please hear me, I am really trying to be good, and nice, and interesting, with all of the arty things around.
Yes, school, my goal. I will persist on that, and prove that your love is great, but not anyone else. That you have faith in me, but none of their temporary judgement counts. Shit, I hate it. I hate it! I hate him, him, him!!!!!!!!
Fiona is missing him. Maybe they should be together. But who is that person for me. How long a time do I have to meet my Mr. Right?
There is still something. something I want to possess, but have not. It won’t be long. The feel, the elegance.
I am so cold down here. The world is so cold. It is so cold.
